kah2004's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Movie & Feeling worthless Sign my guestbook... mmmkay...? One DAMN GOOD reason to go to the doctors... How can I cry when no tears come to my eyes? When inside I feel like breaking down but I keep going on with no rest? How is it that I think I have it all figured out... but then something happens that sends me reeling back over that cliff of pain? Why does life do that...? Mom took me driving yesterday (Ana--> remind me to tell ya about the 3 mile gravel road that leads to near Cat & Andies...) and today we went into Bremerton so this weekend I drove everywhere except on the freeway... Saw About Schmidt with the fam... when I'm w/ them... I'm happy and sad at the same time. I feel so small and insignificant when we're all together. I ask them a question and its brushed to the side. Every time this happens... a part of me dies... no tears fall... because I just push on... letting it wash away that part of me that I wish I could keep forever in me... knowing that I will forever be in pain... if I let them... but not having the courage to do anything about it... Wanting what I can never have has trapped me for an eternity... but then I see that I'll never get that one true hope... so I'm left to fend off the memories of what will never be. Here's another forward I got from my uncle that I thought I'd share... not really feeling many of these lil' sayings right now... but thought I'd share 'em nonetheless... ::sighs::
Don't cry because its over,
Pain and Suffering is inevitable
Yesterday is history,
A good exercise for the heart is to
Life is what you make of it...
The bubbling brook would lose its song
Happiness comes through doors
Everything is always okay in the end,
If all my friends jumped off a cliff,
A girl on the street is pointing up at the sky.
Here is a test to find whether your
So be happy!
Latas... 8:08 PM - 03.09.03 Sunday ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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