kah2004's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This Is My Reality. When I let down my guard and tell myself the truth. I realize I want THE happy ending. I never had the HS romance, or the college romance. I'll never marry someone I knew since I was in 10th grade. I want the happy ending of someone who has loved and not forgotten.
But, this is reality and it will never happen. I am set to live life alone and to never come home to my best friend, much less call my best friend. I want to be able to say that I married my first love. The reality is that this will never happen. I will never give birth to my own kids but hope to one day adopts some kids. I need to face facts and the facts are this: I will never marry the love of my life or my best friend and life is meant alone for me. I am a single, independent woman and that is the story as she wrote it. No more. My happy ending is now. I'm all I have and all I will ever have. I'm not meant to have a husband or a life partner or to be a mother.
It just will never be...
And its high time I realized that.
This is the now, and it will never be what you wished, hoped and dreamed it to be.
NOW IS ALL I HAVE. 9:45 PM - 09.21.12 Friday ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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