kah2004's Diaryland Diary

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this summer has seen it ALL

my room's clean & my shelves are clean... but now... i'm sad as hell and i need a frigging hug...

the only place i want to be in surrounded by my friends... they are my family... and i need them now... *sniffles* i hate death.

i've seen birth this summer, i've seen marriage & love this summer, and now i've seen death this summer... and all throughout this... i've had my friends... so why...

why is it that when i need them all the most... i can't be w/ them...? *pains* i hate death... i hate how it makes me feel... i hate thinking about my Grandma dying soon... b/c my uncle Paul was the reason she stayed alive after Grandpa died... to take care of him, and whatever else he needed... and now... he's dead... so when will she die...? she'll just be in agony for the rest of her living days.... *sniffles*

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just a lil' update from the evening... i've cried... slept... zoned out... talked to friends... and its helped... the day continues on, and so does my life...

but i'm still worried about my grandma...

i love this... my dad started to cook and guess what CD he put in to play...

it

totally

* i heat up, i can't cool down * you got me spinnin' * 'round and 'round * 'round and 'round and 'round it goes * where it stops nobody knows ** every time you call my name * i heat up like a burnin' flame * burnin' flame full of desire * kiss me baby, let the fire get higher ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** you make me hot, you make me sigh * you make me laugh, you make me cry * keep me burnin' for your love * with the touch of a velvet glove ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** i feel the magic in your caress * i feel magic when i touch your dress * silk and satin, leather and lace * black panties with an angel's face * i see magic in your eyes * i hear the magic in your sighs * just when I think I'm gonna get away * i hear those words that you always say ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** every time you call my name * i heat up like a burnin' flame * burnin' flame full of desire * kiss me baby, let the fire get higher ** i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * --"abracadabra" steve miller band--

so much I wish I had done and said... so much I want to say right now... if only he knew... *SIGHS*

* shake down you make me break * for goodness sake * i think i'm on the edge * of something new with you ** ... ** standing there with your smile blinding * your eyes from seeing * my face as i'm dying * to figure out a boy * but he drifts so far away * i'm on his coast * so maybe i should stay * and map around his world * -"hurricane" something corporate-

2:36 PM - 08.31.03 Sunday

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