kah2004's Diaryland Diary

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3rd wheel THIS!!!!

wow... talk about feeling like a third wheel... my mom & taylor just went to town in the Z... i wanted to go... but NO mom needed to take Taylor w/her in case she had any troubles (its a stick and she don't do too well w/ those...)

so... here i sit... feeling like shit and a third wheel... well...

third wheel this!!!

I am Senior Class President... I am a well respected member of the student body and I make sure the ppl around me feel comfortable... then i get home... school work may surround me... but respect doesn't. i feel like i'm just here b/c i am... nothing more. at home i don't feel the way i do at school. At school... I have the space and am able to be "ME" and nothing more or nothing less...

At school I am surrounded by ppl who are my friends and who respect me. I feel needed and I feel like I am doing something to help out.

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I'm talking to Kessie May... heheh... it helps to do an email search for ppls AIM sn's... hehehe...

anywho... Kess wants a Senior t-shirt... so hopefully i can get all of us to pitch in and buy her one to send to her... only $12 that's a damn good price! Cody wants to buy one now & so does Andrea... but us Officers are gonna be pushing to buy one ASAP!! hehe...

still like Cody... nothing new has changed there... 'cept he sat w/ me @ lunch today! B/C of the pics being taken... his usual table was over-run w/ underclassmen so him & Tyler joined the round table we grabbed... b/c none of us wanted to sit by Shere Flint... *shudders* good times Tyler... throwing her pic in the fire... but Cody, being the good guy he is, won't do that... *laughs* i'll have to work on that...

I gave Laughlin "Me" and "Siamese Soulmate" and "Calm Me" and "words" to read for poems I'd written over the summer... I also wrote her a lil' note... but, as it turns out, she was there so I just gave her the envelope! Marissa read "Me" and really liked it... so here it be!

-Me- --08.23.03 Saturday--
here is me.
blank pages filling with ink markings;
letters forming words forming sentences;
changing lives,
filling voids;
speaking out in my own voice.
giving structure to thoughts and feelings,
painting paths with new beginnings;
such as life paints a path before me,
awakening my senses and opening my eyes;
'til suddenly it spies...
laughter of the greatest type;
full of mirth, love, and hope;
spilling forth in excited glee,
speaking volumes of the book titled "me."
like water's fall I splash about;
creating love and giving shout;
giving voice to one and all,
but I simply just want to fall.
slowly the blank is replaced by fire,
warmth and passion guides the spirals of desire;
reaching out and sharing life,
dissipating all one's strife;
and replacing it with love.
simple and true,
the kind that shatters through,
and simply brings me back to you;
I search to feel this feeling of simply soaring above;
and of finding that freedom of just being... me.

* i heat up, i can't cool down * you got me spinnin' * 'round and 'round * 'round and 'round and 'round it goes * where it stops nobody knows ** every time you call my name * i heat up like a burnin' flame * burnin' flame full of desire * kiss me baby, let the fire get higher ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** you make me hot, you make me sigh * you make me laugh, you make me cry * keep me burnin' for your love * with the touch of a velvet glove ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** i feel the magic in your caress * i feel magic when i touch your dress * silk and satin, leather and lace * black panties with an angel's face * i see magic in your eyes * i hear the magic in your sighs * just when I think I'm gonna get away * i hear those words that you always say ** abra-abra-cadabra * i want to reach out and grab ya * abra-abra-cadabra * abracadabra ** every time you call my name * i heat up like a burnin' flame * burnin' flame full of desire * kiss me baby, let the fire get higher ** i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * i heat up, i can't cool down * my situation goes 'round and 'round * --"abracadabra" steve miller band--

See ya ppls at school & whatnot... Friday is the Senior Class Meeting 7-8 AM... WE BE VOTING FOR HOMECOMING COURT!!! BE THERE FO' SHO' PPLS!!!!

so much I wish I had done and said... so much I want to say right now... if only he knew... *SIGHS*

* shake down you make me break * for goodness sake * i think i'm on the edge * of something new with you ** ... ** standing there with your smile blinding * your eyes from seeing * my face as i'm dying * to figure out a boy * but he drifts so far away * i'm on his coast * so maybe i should stay * and map around his world * -"hurricane" something corporate-

6:05 PM - 09.08.03 Monday

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